I first heard
on diary-l, from Dreama.
Ginkgo has committed suicide. My day slowed down from there, pulling
in this fact.
name" was Eve, I knew this years ago, but always thought
of her as Ginkgo, I'd known her as that name since August 97,
when I read
the Jade Clouds, and newly married. I found her through Open Pages,
that's where I used to find most of my journals
Among the Jade Clouds.
I was struck
by the luminous quality of her design, it just sparkled. It was
very cool, and I wrote and told her so. We chatted on and off
since then, Christmas Cards were sent, including one for last
year, which she loved, an original Jeff. The last thing I said
in email to her, May this year, was in response to a slightly
darker entry she posted (Not this
one, but in a similar vein) , unlinked from the front
page, just for her notify list people. She'd asked if she were
a train wreck, and I replied that she wasn't, most definitely
I still think
that, even after this.
My heart goes
out to Mark. My heart goes out to her cats. I know, that might be
seen as an odd reaction, to feel sympathy for her cats. She loved
those cats though, they look loved, there's an entry I wish I could
find, about her sliding on the polished wooden floors with Mark
and her cats. Cats do miss people, they do pine, and there's absolutely
no way to explain to her 5 beasties that their world has been irrevocably
Not that there's
any good explanation of that for Mark, when you think about it.
I kep extrapolating
today, me, married three years in January to Jeff, love of my life,
and my five cats. And I just had to stop doing that. Cause, and
I know this is unfair, I kep thinking, how could she leave him,
how could she leave them?
I called Jeff
at work, later today, to discuss my days plans, errands, work. I
also told him that an online journaller had killed herself. He said
"Anyone I know?" I told him Ginkgo. He remembered her,
her stylish graphics, her cool photography. I thought her graphics
were so cool, when we started Metajournals in '98, I had her do
the first graphics article. [There's an interview
with her here
at Diarist.net, as Metajournals.com isn't online anymore.]
in the above entry are copyright Ginkgo
30 December, 2000